I am a Mirror

[Saiga Ecano]

In everyone's eyes there is a certain color they see the world in. Many will say blue is the color, meaning carefree and wise. Others pink, meaning happy and emotion-filled. Unlike anyone else, I see nothing, not even black. Nor white either. I only see what others want me to see. I can feel only their emotions. Weither or not I have my own, I don't not know. Is it possible to die from too much thought? It seems that each day I get more and more thoughts than I can handle. That my thoughts are too loud for my voice, if that is possibe. I know when people look in my direction they see right past me, as if I am nothing but water that they can gaze into to see themselves. Is it wrong that I have not cried in a year? Can the rain truly be my tears? Empty, that is the only thing I feel. If I am to be seen, I must be sought. I hid in dark corners and closed eyes. Ever feel like you're being watched by hateful eyes? I do, all the time. That feeling that I must not be seen has stolen my ablity to make friends or to even know what friends are. I just wish to become a shadow, for that is what everyone else sees me as. I do wish to see other colors out of my own eyes, not through anyone elses. I do truly wish that I wasn't seen as someone to just ask for wisdom or comfort. But days will come and go, and night will still be dark and unknown. I will be still be a mirror that will never be seen for what it is, no matter how many people do or don't read this. Sorry for wasting your time

[bookcrazI]

Umm.....I want to respond saying that was really beautiful and tragic but the tragicness (is that a word?) makes it beautiful.....but sometimes things are too...too something for words....
if that makes sense.
Thanks for writing this, it ws a pleasure to read it...
(slight grammatical errors though...)
ops..
sorry..
I'm a quarter ocd...

[Saiga Ecano]

It's alright. My mom's an english teacher, so I get that all the time

[bookcrazI]

Cool.... I love English class although the only problem is that I have issues with sharing my work...

[Saiga Ecano]

Really? I just have issues with offering my work. If someone doesn't tell me to read it, I don't, even if I want to

[bookcrazI]

Ah... You see I will read something if I want to or not... Well I usually want to and with or without permission... But I usually like permission.

[Saiga Ecano]

Yeah, other wise you just rudely invited yourself into something that everyone might not want you in, right?

[bookcrazI]

True although if I find something I can read which doesn't require permission and I find it interesting I will read it..... Then again I have my own mini library...

[Saiga Ecano]

Me too! My brothers call my room 'The Library', they even ask to take out books

[Unabound Justice]

Really? I just have issues with offering my work. If someone doesn't tell me to read it, I don't, even if I want to

Yup. When she get's mad at me, I have to tell her to yell at me.

[bookcrazI]

Lol.... I lend my books out to my friens... I'm tempted to start writing down each book I lend out....

[Saiga Ecano]

It is very tempting, other wise they might steal a book. And Nikki, it's not my fault, leave me alone about that

[Gifty]

seriously i lock up my books... until they go to inkpop. I hate when others read my work..

[Saiga Ecano]

I wish more people could read my work. I have stories to tell that weren't just meant for my brothers to hear at bedtim.

[Gifty]

nice no one reads my work most of the time but I usually dont post my finnished books on inkpop... I find they can be very rude to me...

[Saiga Ecano]

I understand. I can post my books on the internet. I prefer that people see my writen words and not what I typed

[Gifty]

i cant write real well.. due to stupid learning disabilities... but I have hand writen 4 of my books.. that was hard work..

[Saiga Ecano]

Yeah, I can see that. My brothers are like that, only they want to create movies not books. It's funny at times

[Gifty]

haha i take drama and I've been doing theater stuff since i was 7 and then one day I was like dude I can write a play.. so i did and then I wrote a book.. then another one and another one... I love drama and acting because I can pretend to be normal.. haha .. I also play in the orchestra and note are a whole lot easier to read than letters to me. i'm just a weird and messed up child..

[Saiga Ecano]

Yeah. I can understand. Growing up my brothers would tear me to peices for stories. They are austic, so tearing me to peices is not a joke. Plus, my school thought that if I spoke one word that I should be in trouble, though my whole class would talk for hours and not be in a wink of trouble. Writing came natural to me. It's the only way I can let people see who I am without showing them

[Gifty]

I wrote a whole half of a book in one 8 hour school day.. I was just that bored that day... and my teacher took it away from me and shredded it to pieces... i still hate her...

[Saiga Ecano]

Bless her heart. That is why I make it look like I'm doing notes as I write. Plus, what else would have the teacher done?

[Gifty]

well my teachers never have shredded my work.. they always keep it... and they always give it back but no she shredded it and it was an awesome book!!! now I have to write it again...

[Saiga Ecano]

Teachers, what are we going to do with them?

[Gifty]

put them in trees??

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