Special, Crazy, Emo Me!

[Unabound Justice]

Ok, my Username is Nikkibee123. My real name is Leslie. My best friend is Saiga For Life. I'm 15. I'm Emo. I am tired of keeping secrets from people I'll never meet. (Saiga, don't worry. I;m talking about my tools. Not you-know-what) I cut. I've told one person about it other than my best friend and they haven't spoken to me since. I kind of figured. Although it does hurt. I'm pretty sure that nobody really cares that much but, I just want them to. I'm not sure why I'm spilling this. Half the teachers see me as a charity case because of my emotional problems. Sometimes, I just want to start crying. All I want is for someone to care. I already figured out that nobody does or if they do, it's only to be scared and call me insane so don't waist your time Ignore this. I just gave you a good reason to ignore me so, feel free. I'm sorry I made you wait you waist your time on this pathetic peice of writing. I just was tired of suffering in silnce and had to spill my guts. Got a date with the razor now. Bye.

[Saiga Ecano]

I know you can't take the looks you get. Like being invisible, like everyone just sees your shell and not who you are and can be. You may feel like you are the only one in the world that sees what is around you. Even if no one will ever talk to you again, at lest they'll know you are great. I doubt anyone would have just spilled what you did. I am prond that someone is finally willing to be honest.

[Unabound Justice]

Well, i just gave them a good reason never to talk to me. I of all people know that nobody wants to talk to the depressed freak. I also know that is exactly what I am. I wish that they'd just be honest and say, "hey I don't give a damn." I can handle that better that their fake smiles and their attempts at comfort. I hate when they apologize. For what? If I wanted their apologies, I'd tell them they'd hurt me. No, they didn't. I beat them to it. And I'm proud as fuck of that.

[Saiga Ecano]

Nothing can stop you now. They can look at you and smile, they can't see your pain. You have kept this inside for so long that no amount of comfort, med's, or friendship and suport can cure. Life may not be worth living, but at lest it will be worth dieing for.

[Unabound Justice]

I wish I had the guts to die for it.

[Saiga Ecano]

You and I both. But then our dream of reaching Japan wouldn't become true. That's something to live to see

[Unabound Justice]

I've quit caring at this point.

[Saiga Ecano]

I see. You believe you have nothing to live for?

[Unabound Justice]

I've lost all my friends but you. I spilled my guts anmd no longer have my secret.

[Saiga Ecano]

How do you know you lost them all? Have they told you?

[Unabound Justice]

I kinda figure when you tell someone you cut and they never talk to you again, you've lost them. I even lost Ryan!

[Saiga Ecano]

Yes, I understand. After all, honesty is your weakness

[Unabound Justice]

Be honest, is it really fair that I lose everyone?

[Saiga Ecano]

Dear Charlie,
Please do not kill Leslie. And please stop yelling at her. She hates to be yelled at, and I learned the hard way.

[Unabound Justice]

I didn't mean to have the freaking panic attack!

[Saiga Ecano]

Paic attack?

[Unabound Justice]

When I started crying and coul;dn't breath. That's a panic attack.

[Saiga Ecano]

I see. I hope you are ok. Did your parnets hear? Did Cera hear?

[Unabound Justice]

They didn't hear. I haven't had one in a couple days. And we're off-topic.

[Saiga Ecano]

Just alitte.

[Unabound Justice]

A little? We were talking about losing someone and now are talking about panic attacks. Find a connction.

[Saiga Ecano]

Well, they are both about you. That's the connection.

[Unabound Justice]

Other than that. Something useful.

[Saiga Ecano]

Let me think for a while than...

[Unabound Justice]

ok

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